Becoming A Free Spirit

     "New year, new me" is a phrase I've ironically said around New Years for several years now. Statistically, most people fail their New Years resolutions by February, or so I've heard. Knowing this I've never put too much though into making any resolutions since grade 8, when I had the resolution to stop eating meat for 30 days (something that's stuck around for 8 years now, so I guess I'm the exception...).  Instead I opt to make goals. Goals are great and all, but I have this habit of staying the same while I cross them off my list. I tend to stay stagnant, safe. I fall into a constant state of overthinking and procrastination. In return I never really get around to crossing off as many goals as I had hoped. I go back and forth with myself on how I'll do something, or when I should do it, but I always miss the most important step; actually doing it.  This year, I want to make actual resolutions. I've spent a lot of my time lately thinking. ...

 Hi. My name is Mckenna, nice to meet you! Welcome to Becoming A Free Spirit, my blog which will hopefully  one day be on an actual website rather than blogger haha. Over the past few months, I've felt a longing inside me which I've come to call my void. I want to experience all that life has to offer. I want to do everything; see everything. And I mean EVERYTHING! I have so many things on my mind, internal plans, and lists. This longing for something more started to take a negative toll on my life. Constant anxiety and worry about what I was going to do next, trying to fit all my plans into my busy schedule all at once. I felt hopeless, I felt exhausted. It was at a point, where I couldn't sleep at night. Now, my plans were not the sole reason for this. I had lots on my mind, but this was the base reason.  After a breakdown in front of my boyfriend, I realized (okay, I had lots  of realizations, this only being one) that in order to do all I wanted to do, I had to s...